First Blog!

 OK boom this is the first blog. I have a lot to say and i have decided i am bringing back blogging. 

i also want to bring back no capitals and like not caring about them. we should be allowed to make the colour of the paper different, pink paper would be cute on this. I don't know if i am going to tell people about my blog to be honest. i have a lot to say but i need discretion to feel like i can say it. I love discretion so much, i feel like everything is too out in the open these days, like i don't want my teachers to be asking me about a boy. genuinely we need to bring back privacy, lets normalise privacy and being a prude. Honestly when other people know stuff about me it makes me feel really pressured, whether it's to stay the way everybody else perceives me or to change it up. It feels like when other people know things about me i don't have the chance to figure myself out, a lot of people at school know me as the girl who does a lot of drogs and goes to a lot of parties and it's like bro i don't even do that much anymore. I just feel like because I have used substances in excessive and unhealthy ways people think i am a junkie or just someone who does crazy stuff. That's not true! i am actually just freaked out all the time, like i smoke so much to help me calm down and it doesn't really calm me down but whatever. I had a teacher know about a boy who i was going out with and it ruined the whole thing, the teacher never acted weird or even said anything but it just messed it up for me. I feel like i can't figure something out while other people know, i need to have at least a month and a half where it's just me and maybe a few close friends who know. This also applies to non-romantic stuff too, if i want to apply for jobs or an activity i don't want anyone to know. maybe i am just freaked out by people perceiving me though, I really do wish people would just leave me alone though. I had a bunch of guys responding to a story i posted for a friend's birthday and they were so weird. One guy hit me with the "ur bhad" "be mine" what happened to please and thank you? i also got a "your sexy" wrong you're but like omg bro. People need to be normal again I miss it. Lets bring back blogs and being a normal polite discreet human.